Is It FATE?

just when u think that things could be going ur way why does it always happen??? u know what i'm talking about....something comes out of the left field and u get all messed up. there is an itch in ur mind & dare i say dont rub it....thats not possible at all.

somebody just put HER hand down my throat and pulled out my heart.....can u imagine the pain?? its not possible to understand if u weren't in that place.

i question myself why do i put there myself everytime knowing fully that it wont come rite back and bite me again....why do i go for the wrong decisions when somehow somewhere in my heart i know that this will last for only 15days or so....

last time i paid a high price for the same mistake....this time i dont know yet...but god knows in future this will happen again and i will make that same mistake again and again....i think my friend JOYEF was rite the other day. "its all about the fate"--he said. i didnt want to agree with him.....but i know its true its true. fate has funny way to choose its pray & i think i'm contenderless in that division.

are we slaves of our own fate? or its just the way we think to tame our heart? does it always work?

i' m still waiting for that FATEFUL day when this whole game will be over and i'll end up where i truely belong.....do u know where that is? i surely dont know.