Brighter Than Sunshine...

I'm happy for once. Amazing I know. I re realized a lot of things this week that its not exactly that I forgot them. I just wish i could do more to show that honestly and totally.Its nice to finally feel that way. I just wish that things were a bit easier.

I felt awful just a week ago because life took its course and there was nothing I could do to stop or change it, and what she doesn't realize is that I feel as deeply annoyed/pained/fustrated. The connection is that deep like it hurts but maybe that's in a good way.

You know that reminded me of "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" and it made me wonder.... what if destiny plays a bigger part in things than we realize. Clementine and Joel erased each other and yet ended up back together something drew them together....... What was that? Sometimes I feel like Joel....crazy, different, emotional, sentimental......*because yes I will admit that after all i certianly am* but deep down I am just another one trying to find his way. My path may be different from most, but it is still mine and that is ok. I still just want to be understood by someone...... and I finally feel that I am and can't help but think that it was destiny that had a large part of it...