Cross Roads

Soul Mate.....hah, cute. Wonder what self-comforting notion will be invented next.

For me soul mate is someone that I connect with in a way that I've never known. I also feel that it was come by honestly, through true friendship, getting to know one another, and appreciating the person for who she is and not some imagined quality. I feel in my heart of hearts that now, at this time in mine life, that we maybe perfect for each other, as perfect as you can be and still be different...

So, do I risk it all, or do I discourage this and keep what I have? If this is as rare and beautiful as I think it might be, maybe when I am 80 I will look back and regret...

So do I believe in soulmates? Yes, I do. But I also believe that you can meet your soulmate and never get to be with them. I think this kind of thing probably happens a lot. It is tearing my heart out at the moment, maybe her as well, and the question of "is there such a thing as soulmates" to me has been answered...yes, there is such a thing, but that doesn't help me much right now.

My biggest concern is that we can keep being friends, keep the relationship, no matter what. I don't know if that's going to be possible. I think that if I make the choice to pursue things, we will have to end everything. I think we can continue to spend time together and NOT do something about our feelings. To me that is the saddest, saddest thing....but sometimes thats the way it should be.... I really feel like I have met a person that might be a better choice for me, than what I have now. I am faced with...try to pursue my soulmate, potentially lose EVERYTHING, or, possibly gain everything I have ever wanted. Which road should i take?